TESTAMENT

"For in much wisdom is much vexation, and he who increases knowledge increases sorrow."  (Ecclesiastes 1 : 18 ESV)

I admire the ability of so many people

To possess such strong opinions.

They know everything about everything,

Hurling their lethal harpoons like Olympians

From some golden age when no one suffered

And perfection prevailed in a flawless arcadia.

As for me, I know nothing.

All my life I have studied –

I queried and probed

The writings of geniuses;

I meditated on the scriptures

Of ancient religions;

I considered the science

Of the pioneers and the moderns;

I luxuriated in the words

Of literary heroes and heroines;

I applied myself

To poetic expressions of feelings.

And, yet, I must conclude

That I know nothing.

So I am the worst of men -

A mere shell that has no content,

As hollow as the home of a dead mollusc.

FIRIES

On most days it would be a jaunty ride,

Forty-five minutes or so

Around the hairpin bends,

Winding through the wooded hills

That are green up close – olive green –

But shrouded in blue haze

When you look up from the plain below.

On this day it was a four-hour horror

And the tarmac was like a hotplate

Where the sizzle signalled only foreboding.

Somehow, we made it to the emergency zone.

The flames were leaping across the gullies,

So there was no time to waste.

There were fire breaks to make

And backburning options to take.

Then the spot fires appeared

Like random shots from enemy snipers,

Who wore the livery of Lucifer’s army.

By midnight we were running on empty,

Stirred by instant coffee from a thermos,

Then came the hunger and the headaches,

Throbbing like the pulse of a breaking heart.

And yet we toiled until a gentle first light,

But by then we knew we were spent.

When they drove us to the staging area

There were hugs and handshakes

And, at last, real coffee

To wash down a banquet

Of bacon and egg sandwiches

Prepared by chefs trained in Heaven.

In the new daylight we could see the hillsides -

Studded with stands of black splinters.

Occasionally a solitary bird broke the silence -

Calling in hope or lamenting in despair?

And we thought of the dead animals

With tears in our bloodshot eyes.

Then we heard the stories of the wild night -

The houses lost, and the people still missing.

It went quiet again then, and we sipped our coffee,

And some of us prayed in silence,

While others just stared at the smoky sky

As if they had a million questions to ask.

This poem was inspired by a Facebook posting by the Kurrajong Heights RFS's Lucy Kaboosey and Steven Baranowksi that was shared by Julie Donaghue.  It is my hope that it honours all the firefighters who are giving so much in these trying times.  The photograph, from a collection that originated with the Blaxland’s Ridge RFS, was posted on Facebook by Sharon Greentree and also on the Bowen Mountain, NSW page.

GEHENNA

So this is how it ends -

Days of thunder without rain,

Skies the colour of pain,

Air exhaled by Satan's friends.

Could there be new beginnings -

Birds rising from the ashes,

Fish that thrive in the heat,

And weeds that taste like meat?

No, we are the damned –

Chosen to die in a scorched climax,

Without understanding anything,

Deceived by almost everything.