Saturday, January 19, 2013

BLACK DOG


Do not let on,
Do not let go, be brave although
Each month, each week,
Each day just makes it worse.
Praise God, praise men,
Praise all who seek to save;
Reach high and reach and reach;
Reach out to beat the curse.
Each time the tears burn more
Ever leaving much, much less.
Such that you can quit and choose
Some quick end that calls
Says its name with ease and
Seems like a way out but is
Itself filled with fear that stalls.
I can but warn all who see this mess:
Own a slow, shared victory –
Our plight offers no easy flight.
No man can hope to win alone
Nevermore’s black dog fight.

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

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NEVER WILTING


So you think
You have a great idea
For a story.

You see a movie
Or read a book;
And the story is a cruel,
But strangely welcome,
Reminder of something similar
That you have considered,
Or, worse, something that you
Have long ago lived through.

It is but a short step
From that realization
To the inspiration
That leads you to write.

There is something you know well.
Something from your distant past.
An incident that affected
Your whole approach to life.
A person never forgotten.
A few moments
That deserved to be driven
To their logical conclusion –
Whatever that was!

And, yet, perhaps there is
An illogical conclusion
That is also worthy
Of exploration.
So, you decide
To explore.

The effort sucks your insides out.
Each sentence draws you further
Into a hole that has no exit.

Your body aches
And your mind reels
As though it has been bludgeoned
Into insensibility.
Your emotions are worse than stretched;
They are drawn so tight
That the slightest irritation
Makes you appear to be insane.

You become what you are writing.
The inevitable character
Based partly on you is alive
And you cannot help
But act out his longings.

So you long for the objects
That he desires
Even though you know
That they are beyond
Your pathetic reach.

The places you describe
Become the places
You want to inhabit.
They crawl out of the scenes
You see each day
And they torment you
With background music
Composed by the devil.
You slowly go mad.

But at some point
You finish
And you can write no more.

At some point
You ask someone else
To read what you have extracted
From your very soul.
And they read;
And they offer,
With the best of intentions,
A few platitudes …
If you are lucky!

The pity of it all
Is that any platitudes
Are so much more palatable
Than the cold reject notes
That come all too quickly.

So you are left to wonder
Where you went wrong.
You are left to wonder
Why you are desolate
Even though
You have achieved so much more
Than most people ever attempt.

No answers come
And the few who know of your folly
Can only think
‘I should have told him so.’

But you keep trying
To prove them wrong.

Friday, January 4, 2013

DAMAVAND


Massive mountains tower
Over dusty Tehran,
But they cast no shadows –
Such is the deft movement
Of the parching hot sun
Making its daily run.

Most of the smog smeared year
The high mountains merge with
The haze that masks their peaks
And their vastness recedes
Until the breeze blows clear
And peaks and crags seem near.

When dirty air withdraws
A glance detects one more
Distinct summit of size
That dwarfs its neighbors’ heights,
Volcanic in its shape -
Serene in its white cape.

The cone of Damavand
Rises and makes it known
That even stone has grace,
Presence, and stands supreme –
Set stark against blue sky.
Steep slopes delight the eye.

Jaded tourists look up.
Nonchalant Tehranis
Turn knowing heads to see
The sight that stays the same -
Perfect never changes
Above charcoal ranges.

Wednesday, January 2, 2013

PERSEPOLIS



Perched just behind the pilot’s seat
I felt strangely modern and sure,
Despite the rough terrain below
The helicopter’s throbbing roar.
But then the hills fell right away
And the dusty ruins were there,
Blurring slightly but set in stone
So my response was stare and stare.

The old city stood at the top
Of a neatly divided plain.
The hills behind were stark and bare
Housing old graves that hide the pain
Of those ancient kings of all kings
Who ruled as their vast empire spread.
They gained the world and even more;
But reigned always just years ahead
Of great armies and grim defeat.
In time they came – massed invaders –
Bringing the fire, wreaking revenge,
Raising flags for crass crusaders.

And all the time I walked these ruins
I sensed what must be understood –
Persians were here when we had nil
Of what we know of nationhood.
So I began to wish for you:
My favorite glimpse of Persia’s pride.
How much, much more I would have learned,
If you had been my loving guide.

Later you said in your sweet voice,
That laughed its way around my heart,
You have but seen Takht-e Jamshid
Where our great kings led lives apart
And built bedrooms for all their wives.
With that I smiled, replete with dreams
Of love for my Persian princess,
Who was, I hoped, hot for my schemes.

Note: The ruins at Persepolis are often referred to as Takht-e Jamshid because the site was once believed to be the home of the mythical King Jamshid.  In fact, the city was built by the kings who reigned after Cyrus the Great had toppled the tyranny of Babylon’s Chaldean rulers and established the massive Persian Empire that dominated the known world until Alexander the Great began his march eastwards.  This poem recalls seeing Persepolis from the air while travelling from Shiraz in a military helicopter piloted by members of the Iranian Imperial Guard.  The photograph shows only a tiny portion of the overall spectacle.